Sit in this chair in the corner of the room every Monday to Friday killing my mental like a melting candle. in this office walking around the genius that younger than me, makes me feel like a "dum-dum". Ok, I'm just an apprentice. Considering this status should make me feel at ease because it wont be long... but nothing I can do... I actually felt so pathetic when i got stuck and asking them for help...because i am not smart enough to solve my own problem.... And they even got important job that i didn't. I feel so bad about my self... About being lack of skill, being a 20-years-old-confused-girl with no exact dream, no specific talent, dishonest-inconsistent-crybaby personality which always keep standing on save spot...
I tried to cheer up my self... but it's all the reality I can't deny...
God... I feel so pathetic...
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